And I was doing so well

I was doing so well this week. Then today, for no good reason, other than I didn't go to work, I downed a tub of ice cream, and vomited it back up.

Fuck! Will I ever stop this crap? It is getting real old.

Went shopping.....

Got to the cashier, she was checking my groceries through. She got to the Ultra Slim, and asked if it was any good, I said, I don't know, I was trying it for the first time. She asked if I was a "try anything kinda girl" I laughed and said yeah, I am.


Then she says; well as long as it doesn't make you sick...... But vomiting is good... You will loose weight!

Intro

I am going through a lot at the moment. I thought that recording how I feel might make every thing clear.

Well, that is the idea anyway.


I am a bulimic. I eat, and eat, and eat. Then I make myself sick. I do this almost daily at the moment. I am on antidepressants, but when I do remember to take them, they do very little to stop the bingeing.

I have type 2 diabetes. But do you think I take my meds the way I should? Noooo.

I am determined to make myself as sick as possible, I am sure.

But on the up side, I have a wonderful DH, and such a sweet little boy. I really am lucky. I just have to get well in every way to enjoy my family.