If it's not one thing

Its another.


Ok, 2 things to start with.


1. I am at my goal weight. 65kg.
2. I am having my abdomionoplasty on the 15th of August (27 days from now)

Ok, I may, or may not change my goal weight, depending on the outcome of the tummy tuck. If I am supah duper thrilled with my new belly, and think fuck it, I will forget about pushing the finish line back (I do that to keep the race happening).

So that weight crap remains to be seen. For the moment, at least, I am at goal weight.

So, now for the other thing.

I think I realised that I will never be beautiful. Quirky looking, sure. Interesting, yeah, I'll buy that. But losing all the weight in the world has not made me beautiful.

Fucker.