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***Waaaay before I became morbidly obese, I was an exercise addict - you can't get too much of a good thing LOL. Like I would go on these hour and a half runs and then force myself to stop out of fear that I might have to miss the next day's run if I overdid it. Golly, if a person is going to be addicted to something, let it be running!

Sadly I was in an accident and suffered major injuries which prevented all working out for several years, and every attempt to get back into shape met more injuries....

Now I'm morbidly obese. I don't make excuses for myself, but I do think you might have fogotten what it's like. If I try to exercise at this weight, my old injuries spring back in an instant (trust me, it's brought me to the physical therapist every time, sometimes unable to walk.) I bought a rower instead, and my old rotator cuff tear reared its head. My goal at this point, after the lap band, is to have my shoulder surgically repaired so I can exercise again. I miss it soooo much!

Also, when you're morbidly obese, you have too much insulin in your body, which drives down your blood sugar and causes your body to store more food as fat. My serum blood sugar has been tested at 50 two hours after a meal, when it should be elevated. Blood sugar should never drop below 70!

I'm sure this sounds like a load of excuses to you, but without the band, would you be where you are now? You say not, but read that magazine article about you - you did try for a year before getting banded. Now that you're thin enough to run, and thin enough that your metabolism is healthy and no longer hyperinsulinemic, you can run and exercise and don't crave garbage food all day.

I've spent the last four and a half years in a humiliating series of failed attempts to regain my health through diet and exercise. My hunger would overwhelm me at every attempt, and my injuries would prevent exercise. I hope and pray that the band will take off enough of my hunger to enable me to finally succeed.

Just be thankful, not judgmental!

Anyway, congrats on your success. I'm not criticizing you - just answering your question of whether I think you've forgotten. I hope that a few years after I get my band I, too, can forget what it was like to be morbidly obese!!! :o)

Anon
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(Had a SUPER long post written out, but this sums it up)

We are all human. Like it or not we are all, in reality, on a level playing field.

It's up to *you* if you wanna play or not.

And no, I am not judging anyone. It's not my place. I can only judge my own actions, and for me to be accountable to myself I must be honest. I have just seen that people who take a good, honest self inventory have a better shot at making this work.


XOXO,
The chick who still has PCOS, a bad knee and at her highest weight, high blood pressure, chronic knee & hip issues and Type II Diabetes.

And for the record, I forget nothing. I have yet to forget my time as a teen mother. Just because I am not a teenager anymore, does that mean that I have forgotten what it was like? The struggles? The pain? The humiliation? The *true* judgement? No. It means I remember all too well, and have fought tooth and nail to get where I am today. I will do what it takes to get what I want. And I refuse to be apologetic for getting what I have worked hard for in my life.